Bella Giornata

Udine, Italy.

That is where my heart has been all week.

And yet, I have so enjoyed this week, here. In Florida. Doing what I am doing. Getting up at 5AM. Driving to school while it is still dark and then watching the sun rise. (Clarification: I do not drive to school that early to watch the sun rise. That is just how it works out.) Anyways. Being present. Feeling the day. Living in the day. I used to watch the sun rise over the mountains from my kitchen window in Udine, while I made coffee in the morning. God would always get at my heart with the beauty of each morning. I longed so much to be able to open my arms to the day that was before me.

I feel so blessed. God is so faithful. Life is so good. I don't mean perfect. It's not perfect. Perfection is not the goal. The goal isn't to never have a bad day. The goal is to enjoy the good ones. The goal is to appreciate each day for what it is. The goal is to be able to open my heart to God and to life and to the people around me. Did you hear me? The goal isn't perfection.

Gasp.

Gulp.

Listen, sometimes you just have to let go. Sometimes you just have to stop thinking about it so much and just live your gosh darn life!

When you're pursuing God with an earnest spirit, I believe that these things are going to work out, because God is working them out. You don't (I don't) need to think about this so much. Trusting God isn't about figuring it out and then "resting in God". Trusting God is about resting (not being anxious about your life) because you know in your heart that God is in control even (especially) when you can't figure it out.

So. Let it go. Just go live your life. Stop thinking about everything so much. Stop worrying about how it will all work out or if things will ever change. Are you earnestly pursuing God? Then chill out, he has you. If you're not pursuing God, chill out. He has you....(But...start pursuing him.)

And yes. I know the last three paragraphs were pretty much me repeating the exact same sentence over and over again. But you see, people like me need people who will repeat the same three words three times over. (i.e. "let it go") Also, I do know that you aren't supposed to start a sentence with "and". Deal, friends. Deal.