There are people in this world who are not loved.
Children...babies...who aren't loved or cared for. It breaks my heart.
I have been loved so well, so completely, my whole life. Loved by family, friends, and the Lord.
I keep asking myself, why have I been given so much love? What is the point of it all?
The point, I think, is to give it away. Because as I said, there are unloved people in this world.
People of any age who are not loved or care for always hurt my heart. But it tears my heart out and takes my breath away when I see images, hear stories, or realize the reality that there are children who are not hugged...babies who are not held and kissed and rocked to sleep. Seeing lonely and vulnerable people of any age often makes me sad. But children and babies... They are just so easy to love. You don't need words. You just need hands and arms. And a heart.
I have been loved well not so I can continually bask in it, but so that I can go and love those who have not been so fortunate. How are we to love others if we have not been loved ourselves?
I am only able to love because Christ has loved me first. Perhaps the people who I am supposed to love will vary throughout my life. That goes along with what I have been learning... God's purpose in/for my life will look like different things at different times in my life. I need to stop trying to put what (I think) God's desire for my life is, in a box. I need to stop thinking I know "the one thing" he wants me to do. Because there isn't one thing. Sure, there is one general calling that we have as followers of Christ. But that is not what I am talking about.
The thing is...I have no idea what my life is going to look like or be like. I have no idea where I will live or who I will live with. I have no idea what I will do or with who I will do it with. I don't know where I will go and who will be going with me.
It scares me so much. I just want to be in control. But I am not...gosh I hate it sometimes--okay, pretty much all the time.
Sorry to all my non-existent readers for the semi-pointless post.
About Me
- Lore
- This blog is basically how I de-stress from 1.) all the awkwardness I encounter and cause on a daily basis and 2.) life in general. You know all of those little situations and bumps in the road that you don't give a second that about? (No, you don't know, because you didn't give them a second thought.) Well, those kinds of situations tend to create existential dilemmas in my soul. So at some point I will probably give you too much in depth information on my emotional, spiritual, and mental health, because some self-absorbed part of me thinks you really want to know.
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